Stressssssed.

In the last week and a half I think I've lost 5 pounds - all due to stress. Which isn't such a great thing because I think once you hit 30 it becomes harder and harder to hold on to lean muscle mass, so that means my metabolism is going to be shot if I continue down this path. And yadda yadda yadda. Honestly, the things that happen to you as a result of all the stress is enough to make you stress out even more.

Well, tomorrow is sort of a big day. I shouldn't say "sort of" because it really is a big day. I'm hesitant to say what this is, even though I'd be the first person to voice my irritation with anyone else trying to be so cryptic in a blog or on Facebook posts. I think most people I know on Facebook do not read this blog because they don't know about it, which is a good thing, yet I'm still hesitant to say what's happening tomorrow.

I will say that despite the stress of getting to this point, I'm excited about this change. And when I'm not being bombarded with reasons why this could possibly be a mistake (mind you, this is only coming from one person in particular), I foresee a bright 2012 full of possibilities and opportunities. It's the year I will finally make money, get out of debt, maybe even buy a new car. This is a big step considering just a few years ago I didn't have the confidence to take all three of my kids to the zoo or to the grocery store or even to the park on my own. I let the fear consume me to the point where I lost my confidence, and soon my independence.

But I'm not there any longer. I'm finally at a place where I like myself and the only thing I want to change is anything that poses as a red flag. And there have been plenty of red flags....

So here's to tomorrow. Cheers!